Thursday, September 08, 2005

happiness

prepare for dull words used in the wrong context.


i feel now that my life starts running again. most recently i've recontacted a lot of my dear and closest friends from school ...or i was contacted. once i had spoken to my friends -even though it was via phone- i felt like updated or refreshed. it made me happy to hear their voices and exchange thoughts, fears and ideas on what could inspire us. noone knows me i guess as good as these people. we've mostly been going through the most important and amazing times of our lifes to this time together. we've seen how people changed and became who they are now. and this is a very special and precious kind of intimacy that we all share.
i felt as happy these days as i haven't in quite some time. today just before i was heading for the lake i recieved a call of a good friend of mine who is now going to study at __________________. i've never been able to keep up or start an in depth relationship to her. it's some little things in attitude, humor and cultural appreciation that link us (something she calls a taste for absurd culture). beside she's a very tough and disciplined person. actually there's enough material in my mind to dedicate a whole column to this woman, whom i'll only refer to as the future Claudia Roth on this site. i've already written a whole diary entry about her way of life. one of the things i admire most ebout her is her bravety and self confidence. she'll even have the guts to say that one of her works of art class could easily be exhibited in a museum...as opposed to the works of all the other classmates, which were as she sad shallow and superficial pieces of art. this is of course a rather estranging side of her self counsciousness. the positive side, that i quite admire...is the stereotypical side of a young career woman, who's not withdrawing from her attitude to MAKE IT and from her own will and plans. She now spent some time at an internship in montreal, canada. after one week in a law firm, where she'd all against her hopes just supposed to be serving food, she didn't hesitate but head for the human ressources office. the head of this office, a woman that goes by the beautiful name of jackie chan was soon to be identified as her arch rival of her longing for a better job. future claudia roth didn't leave out any little embarassing comparison to proof that catering would be beneath her. she even went so far to dwell on the difference between a german abitur and an american high school examination. of course she aimed to say that compared to the abitur the high school exam would be kinda pointless... i would never ever have the courage to do something like that. it would probably take me two months at the catering to start thinking about how hurt jackie chan would possibly be if i denigrated her high school degree.

this and last week i was working at my aunts bag shop administration. which means that i'm from 8 a.m. till 2 p.m. occupied with the most stupid and dumbest kinds of work one can imagine. but in the end it's that stupidity that gets me some solid cash.
once i come home i have a hard time to organize my spare time, which leads to the fact that i rarely come to update this blog. instead i'm watching tv and downloading three investigators internet files via kazaa. i hope i will be able to manage a television column on this site very soon. among all this trash that's put out on air these days there are some rare diamonds that are sometimes hard to discover.

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